Start of something new

Today is the last day for my 2 weeks holidays. Ya, and that's mean tomorrow will be another new chapter of my life. *sweat* hahaha, I will start going Shining for internship on tomorrow.


What's my feeling right now? Complicated. I haven't get ready, both mentally and physically, yet, I have nothing to prepare. The only thing I can do is to show up on time and be responsible on my works. Alot of uncertainties lingering around me.


Hey, by the way, I did mentioned a secret mission is taking place for the past 2 weeks?ermmm, not only for 2 weeks though, it's for 1 year. hahaha, I decided to reveal it. Everyone on earth knows that I'm fat, ok fine, maybe I should have say that I'm fleshy...my pain....


Regarding to this, I have used like few weeks to persuade my daddy to let me join a fitness centre which near my house. And finally he surrended and asked me not to be '3 minutes heat'.


Okay, I went there for like 1 month already. I enjoy attending various dancing class but not gym. Treadmill is just a little too boring for me, I prefer to have more movements and space.


I have attended kickboxing, Bodystep, step rhythm, mtv dance, latino jam, belly dance, bollywood jam, para para fitness and aerobic classes so far. Yup, quite alot, coz I'm curious and wanna to try everything out. I'm having fun all the time, but not really serious when I'm learning. gomen neh...


And and, exercising didn't pull me out from the world of fats. what the.... the harder I work, the better my appetite becomes. T___________T why?! Despite how much water and oil I've loss during the work out, I'll easily gain them back, possibly double the amount of the calories that I have shaded. My appetite will become extremely good after every work out, and my self-control is the disaster.


That is why I am so brave to let you guys know that I'm going exercise more frequently compare to last time. Why? because, when people know that you start working out, they will wanna see a slimmer you, and you'll push yourself harder due to the invisible pressure that do really exist.


OK, fine fine. I will try to control my appetite for the sake of my future. wtf.


By the way, don't you miss me? for not showing up here for quite some time. Approximately 1 week. sorry coz the urge of blogging just doesn't struck me. *fainted*


okay, for people who miss me, here I am.



-__________________- no face showing. hahaha. Seldom taking picture lately. Wei, nice anot this top? Floral top from Zara. Oh my, I heart it so much since I first saw it. I know not many people can accept this kind of floral stuff, but I don't care, I'm just so in love with it. Sadly, I'm so broke now, and have given up to bring it home. Kiss goodbye floral babe. aiks...



oh boy, I think I have to stop here and head to the bed now. Wish me luck! byebye.