Randomness-edited

The first week for my internship passed without my notice. (I'm actually counting the day as my routine. wtf)


Well, whenever people asked me "how's your work? Are you busy? or what did you learn?" I found myself as dumb as an oyster. Why? because I'm not as busy as others, and my job doesn't seems to be interesting if compare to others. ( I tried hard not to compare.)


In fact, I'll always worry that people will looking down at me, no matters what I'm doing, whether big or small. Same case this time, as I did not enter a big nor famous tv station for the intern, and the company doesn't seem to be a steady one, I'm looking down at myself, at the very first place.

Why am I like this? just forgive me for knowing too much bout the company and being a pessimistic person. I'm trying very hard to hide my depression and worrisome infront of everyone. I'll go for gym or whatever to release the "stress" and boredom, no matter how tired I am.


I'm so sorry, I shouldn't acting like a baby... this was my own choice, no one can force me to take that. I can only blame myself. By the way, looking at the brighter side, it's not that bad after all I think, there are several projects coming. Despite those project aren't as grand as other tv station could organise, I believe that I would have chance to learn!


After all, it's all about me, myself, whether I wanna help myself. If I can still learn and enjoy during these 4 months under "this circumstance", nothing can defeat me anymore.wtf and I'll possibly being proud of myself. *hopefully*


Sometimes, mentally support either from your friends or family is much more stronger than you can think. Somehow, I can't find a someone to share with.


Should say, I can't find a suitable person to talk with. I can't even find a friend that I'm trusted to pour my feelings... I'm not exaggerating or what. 3 in love were possibly busy with their own works, and will exhausted after a hectic day. I dare not to disturb or annoy them with my small-matters. SV, she had enough to worry and bother about her own things, we're best declare as shopping-mates instead of true friend, so sad but I have to admit. Kim, I think she will has more interesting and meaningful stuff to be done instead of listen to me. And the list goes on. Sorry for being that honest... I'm just feeling empty when I browsing thru my phone or MSN list to see who can I call or chat with, and I found.... no one. The feelings is just, sour.


Why am I so emo throughout this post? I would like to know either.


Anyway, I felt much more better after typing all these. As always, my blog will be my best companion and best listener. *heart heart*


Sorry if I've annoyed you with my long-winded and discouraging post. Let's show you guys some food and drinks and people. what the.... don't care, just scroll down.


Random pictures for a random lunch with my friends, a.k.a colleague at Niello. *sweat*


Honey lime. I don't like honey, but I can accept this drinks.

Ermmm, I forgot what this rice called. As you can see, fried crispy fish top with sauce and rice. Very nice, I'll order this whenever I go that restaurant. (yeah, I went there quite often last time, it's one of my gang's hang out point. I mean dining point.)

Char Di, she's quiet all the time, I always wonder if she's thinking million of things when she doesn't talk. hahaha. but I like her, she's nice person! no doubt. hehe

Poi Chin and I. ( Don't trust what you've seen from this pic, lotta editing works have been done behind.... as long as I'm happy with it.) yeah, 3 of us ordered the same rice that day, and they like it so much too. haha. Leng San didn't join us for the lunch that day, coz he went with other colleague.

Okay, I think that's all for now. Cya! And, Happy birthday Voon !!!!=D