美，是一种生活的态度!

我喜欢花，我很喜欢花，但不能是真的，因为不喜欢它会有枯萎的一天。


我喜欢这样的花！

最近，试图让自己过的很开心，是的，很刻意，但是还真的行得通。没骗你，只要你要开心，你就会是开心的。哈哈哈，很白痴的说法... 你可以试试。

美，是一种生活的态度!

很有意思的一句广告词。简单且深刻... 我得好好把自己的每一天，用最美丽的态度去过。

前几天，在白雪不是公主的部落格中，读到了一篇“最佳男朋友”。我喜欢她的文字，简单得来友善，哈哈哈，用友善来形容文字很怪...

话说回来，每个女孩子都会有自己心里的最佳男朋友，一定的。

我的要求有没有很高? 不知道... 遇到的他都各有吸引我的地方，很贪心，如果能把他们的优点都聚集起来，哪有多好! 我知道不可能。也该想想自己是什么东东... 也不应该把别人的缺点放大，我都知道。


(对不起，接下来的文章将应用白雪“最佳男朋友”篇的方式，就是以“他”字作为开头，请见谅。 我也不会透露他是谁，我得尊重他的隐私。）


他，可以很聪明，也可以很白痴。
他，很会说甜言蜜语，我虽然讨厌口甜舌滑，有时还真的甜到漏。
他，陪我熬过最多个夜晚，无论是失眠的，或是特地的。
他，陪我在唛当劳，做功课，虽然比较像他在做。
他，讲话比我还小声，还说可以保护我... 哈哈哈。
他，现在有一个他很爱的另一个她。


他，很只以为是，但是很有想法。
他，很孩子气，会为了一些芝麻绿豆的小事而赌气，跟我过不去。
他，走在我身旁时，习惯用手在我头上扫一圈，嫌我矮 ，但我们都知道这样的高度刚刚好。
他，喜欢无所事事的陪我兜风，虽然没有说话，却感到窝心。
他，可以很久不和我见面，真的很久，我承认我会想念他，但没想过他一定也要想我。
他，习惯性的说我不会了解他，不能感受到他的烦恼，其实没把门打开的，也是他。


他，最意想不到的，变成了我的好友。
他，习惯迁就我，凡事都让我，让我觉得很不man... 哈哈哈，我很难搞，其实是幸福的。
他，跟我越是靠近，我就越是感到有距离，也许该说是很不踏实。
他，会陪我吃所有我爱吃的，不会嫌我胖。
他，每次都被我的犹豫不决搞到快疯了，但他还是有胆量再挑战，很值得敬佩。
他，知道我讨厌冷笑话，会在我面前“装”认真，哈哈哈，其实我都知道，不要假假了。
他，愿意为我做出很多改变，我虽然没说，但心里很感动。

对不起! 我好像离题了... 不符合“最佳男朋友”这个标题... 我也不知该放什么标题。

我没说他们都是不合格的，只能说我也不知道为什么。不知道已经变成了我的口头禅...

我心目中的最佳男朋友是怎样的? 不知道... 哈哈哈。

但是...

他，很肯定的，一定要很爱我。废话...
他，要很疼我，但不要到宠，我会放肆的...
他，要很帅? 不一定，要顺眼，很客套? 哈哈，但不能要求太多。
他，一定要很有想法，要有上进心，我讨厌得过且过的人。
他，不可以很幼稚，我更讨厌幼稚的男生...

啊...!!! 大概就这么多，越写越内疚，要求太多。

我并没有把每一个部分写得很详细，都有所保留，因为要给自己一点空间，我没那么勇敢，我不想被知道太多，感觉赤裸裸的。

我知道我该学会的是体谅，包容以及珍惜... 当我学会这些时，也许就会找到他了。

离题一下，昨天向敏珍从网上买了两件衣服，不约而同都是花的图案。

够了，掰掰!

Bye Bye by Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
because You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye [3x])Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus:]I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye (Bye Bye [3x])Bye bye

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

Repeat [Chorus]

This song mades me love Mariah Carey. It somehow touched my heart. It reminds me to care, love and appreciate people around me, especially people who love me, and people who I love.

I love the lyrics, the melody, and the rhythm. OK, just enjoy~!

Secret

Daddy called me early in the morning and he said: Hey you, faster go prepare and go out earlier, it's very jam here, got road block! Don't be late!

Waking up at 7:30am, 8am or 8:20am makes no difference to me... I'll still use the time to the fullest... and possibly end up rushing for no reason! ya, my daddy were right, there was a massive jam at Sungai Ramal, just that part though... it's enough to make me late, you can imagine what time I left my house...

oh my, my biggest weakness, or should have said it's my bad habbit, very bad indeed, is that I will always be late, for class, appointment, lunch or whatever... ya, I know noone likes people who has no time concept. I have been taught about the importance of punctuality since I entered kindergarden/ primary school, even until now my daddy will still giving lecture on the matter of my time management, very often. I hated myself for being late, at least don't too often. Why am I like this? Ok, I will change, I promise!! I swear!

okok, put aside my bad habbit for a while... let's talk about other things. *smile* I went Red Box Plus in Pavilion yesterday with some of my colleagues. No, we weren't there to sing.

Ya, we went there for Yoga's media conference as he just released an album called Mystery. For people who don't know who he is, Yoga was the winner of the "One Million Star"- season 1 in Taiwan.

We're there to interview him for some questions. Ok, ah san, Ima show you some photos here. *hugs*

Phoebe the host, she slimmed alot man~ I also wanna be slimmed. *sweat*


Yam sing~!

He's acting cute, I suppose.

Well, I would have to say, he is just a kid...oh no, a teenager. By the way, he's just 20 year-old, give him some times to grow up. wtf


Neway, I happened to sit at the 1st row as we reached there earlier, that's mean I sit very very near to him, considered. What I can say is, I like him more when he's singing.... hahaha. ok, Ah san, if you wanna see more photos, tell me, I'll send it to you.


As usual, I'm there as a tiny little assistant, again, take some photos and pack stuff, with or without me makes no difference... shit, I have became more and more inferior these days... I myself doubt of my value of existence in this office, and I'll easily drop into the black black hole inside me, depression and disappointment overwhelmed me early in the morning, middle in the afternoon and late in the night... I'm not being exaggerate, I'm just PMS. wtf Frankly, I felt like a loser here, and try not to do things wrong until I mind every steps and became real clumsy coz I scare I'll do anything wrong in the next second, things gone worse when I become invisible and noone will assign any job to me, not even photostating! oh~ how pathetic...


Anyhow, I'm feeling better now, after telling my feelings to friends. Thank you very much for being that supportive and being a good listener. *appreciated*


I have learnt a lesson here, look things at different angle, I'm not that useless as I thought, hopefully... or should have I say, I'm not as important as I thought, I might be overestimated my abilities... Honestly, I keep on thinking bout my abilities lately, it makes me worried day and night. What's annoying me? My future. I see NOTHING for my future, I'm going to graduate very soon, yet I have no planning at all, ya, at all. sorry, out of topic.


Ok. I just wanna say that, I felt much more better now. I know I shouldn't look down at myself and expecting people to notice my existence. I will do all I can to improve myself, what I need is just that little bit of efforts and supports.

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This could be another long winded post, people please be patient, don't leave me half way!


Fook Soon paid me a visit an hour ago. We had lunch in Wong Kok, together with PoiChin.


We talked alot, mmm, in fact we still have many to talk, but we have only 1 hour for lunch... Nvm, FS, I'll accompany you to shopping! or you'll accompany me? hahaha

Snapped some photos in the office.
Oh my, you would never know how terrible I look like in the original photos, this photo had been edited gao gao, by Rika. wtf

Another heavily edited photo... Fs and obese Rika.

Oh my, I beh tahan myself... for being grossly overweight...

Just a minute ago, I told Chardi that I'm fat in MSN and she came to my place holding the book named "Secret". She showed me an article inside and asked me to read. It's about the way you think plays a big part of your life... *sweat* That's mean you'll get what you think, or what you desire IF you have positive belief towards the something that you actually demanding. aiyoh, you get what I mean??

Therefore, I would have to bear in mind that, I am slim, I am slim, I will gain my desire weight, I will get the ideal figure, I know I can!! HAHAHA. Funny but I will give it a try. Don't laugh.

Phew~! I think I have to stop here and keep some for next post. Stay tuned.

Reunion part II

People, I'm back~! hahaha. ya, I'm in office again, and doing nothing AGAIN... so, blogging would be a good choice. I have no strength to type after uploading these photos yesterday night, so now I filling in the post with words, wtf, what on earth for me to explaining that much.

Taking photos is so-not-my-thing since I started my intern, I'm lossing my confident in taking good photos due to some reasons and eventually avoiding snapping photos, as I used to do. Anyway, I got to met my beloved friends last week and last last week, and taken some precious photos... *long winded*

I have tons of photos to show, so I'll let the photos do the talking and write nothing, ci sin.

Fall-in-lurve finally united! *muacks* Pardon me, I'm wearing the Olympic-games t-shirt coz I have to head back to work right after this lunch, on Saturday. *pat myself* I happy until stomachache *not lying* when I know 3 of them were coming to find me for lunch that day, it's hard to gather 3 of them together since South City is way too unattractive if compare with KLCC, 1U and MidValley... wtf hahahahaha

Ok, Ima annouce that Old Town will be our gather place every Saturday, ehemmm, do I mean every? hahaha. I doubt this could happen. Or maybe MayKing? Ah San, when wanna come eat lam mee ah? hahaha.

Fall-in-lurve + Malaigou.

Fall-in-lurve + Xin Rou, I didn't meet this girl for quite some times already, she became more and more feminine but still remain her humourous deep down inside her. *sweat*

Another picture. *caption-less*

I went Jusco to meet three in love after fong gong. After buying some intimate stuff, hahaha, we spent one or two hours in Secret Recipe. Oh, it's been almost 2 months we didn't chat like that, I mean only 4 of us, I enjoy sitting beside them, even we didn't really chat much though.

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You would never know how happy I am, cause I got to meet my another 2 loves on last Saturday. Kim and Ping, the sister. *huggies*

Have to admit that I'm addicted to the smell of saloon, I would have to pay them a visit almost every month, considered very often. Ya, we went for a hair cut again. No, I didn't change much, just the bang became a bit shorter and a bit uglier. *teary eyes*

And then , we went The Garden to have our dinner.

Yeah! We went sushi Zanmai. Yeah! We have to queue for 20 minutes to enter. Yeah! We can't wait to eat Unagi while waiting, ok, only me. *sweat* Now is Unagi season, weeeee~~~~!

The menu is tempting enough until we cannot decide what to order.
hmmm, let me see. Ignore the unknown hand.

Still can't decide? take a break, snap some photos. hahaha.

Kim: Oh my~! everything seems delicious, I want all~! How?? Can ah?!

hahaha, Kim showing her desperate face when ordering.

While I kept on mumbling: I want Unagi roll, I want Unadon...

And here it is!!! Unagi kabayaki, my love~! *drooling*

Caterpillar Roll, roasted eel & omelette sushi roll topped with avocado. Kim and Ping said this was the best food that we ordered that day. For me, I'll still stick with Unagi kabayaki. hehe

On your mark, get set...
GO! It's mine! *grinned*

No, I ain't that selfish, I share my love with my loves one. hahahaha.

Soft shell crab maki and Salmon salad maki ! not bad not bad.


Now you see.

Now you don't.

We finished all these in less than 5 minutes. *exaggerated* Obviously, the food were not enough for us.

Therefore. We agreed to order Unadon~! yeah yeah! See, I can't wait to eat when Ping taking this photo. hahaha.

Okay, I have to be honest that, Sushi Groove's Unagi Don is still the best~! Strongly recommend! Sorry, sushi Zanmai. wtf

If you think all these were the food we ordered that day, excuse me, you're wrong! We're not that easy to be satisfied! hahaha

Sukiyaki. Ya, that's beef. This was my 2nd time eating beef. Well, it taste like pork actually. hahaha.
Take a closer look at it.

Raw beef, me, cooked beef. haha.

Eh, what has actually attracted Kim when we're drinking the soup. She leaded me to look at the same direction.

And we turn back and smile to each other. HAHAHA. looked so silly.

What we saw??

Tang Tang~! Macha Macha the green tea ice-cream~!!!! *yummy*

Ya, we saw people on the other table eating this, and surely we gave it a try! haha

After 4 minutes. HAHAHA

We were worried that this meal might cost us alot, who knows! It turn out to be cheaper than we tought! Sugoi~! Sushi Zanmai are now listed in my my definitely-will-come-again restaurant list!

We, going home with our round and stuffed but yet contented tummies~! *grinned*

ok, ciaoz!

我讨厌无题

我承认我很情绪化，真的很情绪化。我很不喜欢别人问我：你还可以吗？不高兴？之类的问题。我不喜欢太刻意的关心，我更不喜欢被忽略。对，我是怪丫。

每天早上都挣扎很久，才很不甘愿的起床，这种生活一点都不令人向往，我知道，我知道没有人会喜欢。在这里的时间越久，就越觉得自己没有用，比留在家里更来的没意义。每天都期待着六点的到来，一点生命力，一点冲劲都没有。感觉不到自己的存在价值，感觉是透明的，轻飘飘的，没有重量。

我讨厌无所事事，我讨厌不专业，我讨厌自以为是，我讨厌假惺惺，我讨厌不能有自己的想法!!!

我比谁都清楚，我就是这样，无论我到哪里实习，结果还是一样。我就是那么讨人厌，不会自足。

我很不喜欢朋友之间分得很清楚，为什么一定要在好朋友和普通朋友之间，设定着那么一个明显的区别？有必要吗？当你的朋友可以对着别人喜皮笑脸，有说有笑时，但却又对你不理不睬，不闻不问，你会怎么想？我讨厌这么敏感，这么计较的我，很讨厌，也让自己觉得很不高兴。在回家的路上，告诉了自己，不理了！不计较了！嗯，就这样决定。没有谁，会因为没有了谁会不能活，我是这么想的。

没有，不是突然想写的。我想写很久了，把东西收在心里，不是我的作风。可是，我学会了保留，我不会什么都说出来，这样对吧?

还有，没想过有人会这样对我，应该是说，没想过会那么突然。时间的长短对我来说并不是那么重要。我承认我没种，我不够勇敢去为自己的决定负责，所以选择先不想。我也承认我很容易被别人影响，朋友简单的几句话，就能让我左思右想的，飘浮不定。我很珍惜你这样对我，我真的不知我该怎么做，我还真的很珍惜。

好了，答应了要写些快乐的事，结果还是写了这么多不争气的废话，对不起!

至少我现在好多了。

Pink in colour

Yeah ~! Picture above revealing my feelings right now! It's pink in colour, It's a happy colour! hahaha.

I'm happy coz I can meet 3 in love in less than 30 minutes time later. *smile* My hugs are ready!

Okay, have to admit that I've fallen in love with flowers lately. I'll easily get attracted by floral printed stuff like skirt, dress, bag or whatever. It's just so adorable, at least for me.

So, Ima steal others' flower's pic and show here and call it a day. wtf. hahahaha. ok, credit given to abender777 for the pink flower shown above.

Ah, before I forget, CONGRATS Fook Soon~! fight for your dreams! I'll be here, Malaysia la, you thought where else I can go? hahaha to support you mentally~! *huggies* p/s: buy me stuff from Japan har... hahaha