Recent me

I'm so in love with Leona Lewis's Better in time and Rihana's Take a bow now~ >3< Very nice songs~! and not to forget Marie Digby's Stupid for you. Strongly recommend these songs. haha

Been very very free these few days, yet can't get even a piece of idea for my thesis. I don't even have a title! beautiful~! Aiks, my pre-thesis was researching bout local reality TVprogrammes, and I'm confusing whether wanna stick to this topic for my thesis or change it, as this topic isn't that new nor special to discuss about already, right?

Since I'm majoring in broadcasting, I would have to write something about the media, entertainment, and technology. Calvin suggested me to write about nettique. hmmm, considerable but still I don't know what to research about this, I mean, wheteher wanna research bout its effectiveness? acceptance? or what? What do you guys feel like knowing about broadcasting? Don't be hesitate to tell me, it's my honour to find it out for you. wtf

Hmmmm, can't imagine the last and soon coming semester... I would have to take another 6 subjects plus a thesis to be completed... *teary eyes* help~! Frankly speaking, I started feeling that I would rather stay in Uni a bit longer and not to step in the working world that early... I'm just a normal human being that will never satisfied with what I have. I'll wanna work when Uni reopen. aiks... everyone thinks this way too, don't deny.

I realized something, not a good thing.

Most of my posts were full with dissatisfaction, anger, and depression. why?! why like this? I'm so sorry for being emo all the time, no, not because of PMS. *sweat*

Ok, I promise you, from now on, I'll blog with happy mood~ I mean, I'll adjust and arrange my thoughts and my feelings. I don't wanna showing the ugly upset faces for the rest of my life, life is just too short for me to waste~ *smile*

will it take me few more weeks to have a happier post? wtf

Met my dear Jo last Saturday. *huggies* ya, we had our lunch in Old Town again. hahaha. Thank you for accompany me for the lunch. Oh, it's been ages I didn't camwhore with this girl..... ignore the stripe, hahaha

4 in love, my hugs are still here ready for you girls~always


Gosh, in fact, I'm feeling so bad now... sour-ness attacking me, from the second I opened my eyes in the morning until now...

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Suddenly have this kinda thoughts came into my mind, why am I so 一文不值? sorry, I don't know what should I call it in english...

mmmmm......I don't feel like continue writing anymore. Stay tune for next post. Bye

Full of toxic

Came to office with my upset stomach again, ya, been having this kind of feelings for quite some time already. Lately, digestion doesn't works on me, or it works too efficient on me in the other hand? Why I said so? hmmm, these few days, I'll feel like throwing up or going toilet everytime after my meal, even after taking a bread!!

What happen? I also wanted to find it out. It's very torturing when you feel like vomiting or going toilet after your every meal, and the problem is you can't! It's merely that kind of urge telling you to let everything out, and most of the time you'll fail to do so.

Read CLEO magazine few days back, it written that poor diet, stress will lead to the sickness of bloating, headache, tiredness, skin problems, diarrhoea, indigestion and blablabla... Well well, I somehow found myself suffering from most of the sickness listed. Why?! The main problem that irritating me the most was indigestion, I'll feel bloated no matter how simple is the meal that I take. As the doctor (ya, I visited doctor few days back, you'll know if you read my previous post) and my mum said, my stomach possibly full of wind and that's why I'll feel nausea for any food inatke. Hmmm, no wonder I'm like a balloon now, round and bloat... *sweat*

I don't think all these were because of pressure, I'm living without stress now. (I guess I am) Poor diet, how to classify a meal as rich diet? I think I have taken too many flour lately as I eating bread every morning, will this cause anything to me? hmmmm.... skin, my skin looks dull and yellow-ish and this upset me, a lot. Headache! I'll easily feel dizzy no matter I'm in office, car or even at home. *sob*

Oh my~! I can't stay this kind of life anymore! It's very torturing... CLEO told me what I need now is detoxification! I should eliminate foods that are harmful for me (like? fried food?) and go to the gym more often. I want a different lifestyle, I want to treat myself better, I want to be a healthy person~! Ok, decided! Tell me if you know how to make detoxification works!

Just be fair, please~

What the.... I'm so freaking pissed off now!!! Why always me? What did I did wrong?! why?!

I did all the things according to your order, I tried my very best to behave myself, I hide every single laughter in-front of you just because you don't like people laughing in-front of you, I wrote my report carefully and checked every words before I send it to you, squeezing my heart; open my eyes and stay conscious whenever you ask me to do something..... what else you are unsatisfied with me?! Can you tell me face to face, please??

You won't know how disappointed I am, you won't care how's my feelings, you won't even give my existence a shit!!

Or perhaps, you don't even HAVE to care all these.

I can blame noone, but myself for choosing here. It's getting tougher and tougher, for me to stay here happily. Why must make things like this? Why must choose people you like or you dislike while we did nothing wrong?

More than 1 people told me that I should beware of you, I admit I did. I take every single step full of caution. I know it's hard to get your faith on me, maybe it's impossible.

Why must you make this place like this? Why must you treat me like this?

There're hundreds of question marks deep down inside my heart. Yet, there's nowhere to get the answer nor mercy.

Okay, you may think that I'll most probably lost control and cry like a crying baby right after this post. No! I won't give a drop of tear because of these, at least I'll try.

Seriously, I'm not asking for you love nor cares, I just hope to gain a little respect and fairness from you, although I know it's hard for you either.

不用工作的星期一

是的，理佳病倒了。

话说昨日吃完午饭后，就感到晕眩，而且感到恶心，很想吐。。。但事与愿违，现实是残酷的。。。*流汗*

我无法吐，也无法停止那恼人的头晕。多半的时间我都是盖着眼睛的，有一种随时会不省人事的预感。

煎熬了一段时间后，很无助的哭了起来。。。身旁的家人也显得不知所措，递药的递药，安慰的安慰，还是无法停止我往下掉的眼泪。。。

爸妈花了十几分钟，把我带到附近的诊所看医生。医生说我胃进风，这还倒是第一次发生在我身上。

吃了医生的药后，于事无补，还是一样地晕眩，一样的恶心，一样的无助，泪还是不停的流，对不起，生病时会特别脆弱。

煎熬了许久后，终于吐了！我是多么的期待这一刻，对不起如果让你觉得恶心。但我还真的舒服了不少，虽然头还在痛，身体还是软绵绵的，至少不那么难过了。

这突起而来的“细菌”让我失约了，也让我疲惫不堪，更让我请了一天不该请的假。

在家里，无所事事，服了药，更是疲惫，身体毫无生气，心情也跟着沉重了起来。几分钟前，去收拾了凌乱不堪的衣橱，心情却没有跟着整齐起来。。都说了，病人是特别脆弱的。

身体健康很重要，时间不会因为你不舒服而停下来。为什么我突然间那么感慨？我也不知道。
嗯，现在感到舒服多了，只是有点累。我明天就会恢复正常了！*微笑*

接下来的几天内，将会有更艰难的事情在等我，那就是闷！哈哈，没错，公司里多半的人将会到马六甲去拍摄外景，我和两位实习生没得跟去，想必那三天一定会闷死的！What to do? 如果谁有消除郁闷的好方法，不妨与我分享！本小姐将感激不尽。哈哈。

好了，就写到这，我要去休息一会儿。

p/s: For those who can't read mandarin, I'm so sorry, I'll feel like writing in mandarin when I'm in bad mood. Gomen ne~!

Dot Dot Dot

2 big round wholemeal bread + 1/4 cup of HL milk for the beginning of the day~! I stuffed like hell now... yet, contended~! =)

Added another 4 bruises on my knee yesterday. Thanks to the Cycling class, a new class that just launched in TLS Fitness. It's a interesting but tiring class. Right after the class, there's a lucky draw, and I'm the lucky person~! WOOhoo~~~~ ok, the present weren't that expensive nor special, at least, I'm lucky! hahaha.

I try not to make blogging a responsibility nor a must-do task... I don't have much to share lately, just feel tiring to face people at work... I realized, internship isn't a holiday programme for me to relax, but an opportunity for me to learn. Well, not particulary regarding to my broadcasting skills, but the way we deal with different people, included your friends... it's tougher than you can thought. I'm trying my very best to improve my social skills, and don't feel like losing myself at the same time, know what I mean?

Okay, I started talking craps~ I hope I'll have more interesting topic to share in the future...wtf

Yesh~! After so many 7 days/ week working days, Ima feeling restless mentally and physically... Finally, I'll have my one day off tomorrow! good news for me~ One day isn't enough? ya, that's why I MUST use it to the fullest. I planned to wake at 8:30am... >.< Any suggestion for the activities that I can do for the rest of the day? No, no money to shop... hmmm, never mind, as long as I need not to step into the bloody office for one whole day!! hooooray~~!

Reunion part II

I'm a McD freak, but I'm temporarily sick of it now, coz I've taken it as my lunch continuously for 2 days, ya, I admit I very easy to get bored and and I don't think I can slim down if I consume fast food too often. Ok, sorry... craps...


I met my loved one after taken my favourite filet-o-fish in Jusco last Saturday. So many good things happened to me that day, I can die happy~~! wtf


Who's my loved one? I tell you, I miss them until I feel like drive to their home just to hug them, ya, Ima hunger for hugs... hahahaha.


Poi Chin? nahhhh... she's far from becoming my loved one... HAHAHAHAHA. kidding la~~~~ I love her too, but I can see her everyday and can hug her, perhaps, she hugs me. She joined me to the 'gathering'. hahahaha

Oh my, my wife!!! Ah San~~~~~~ hahahaa. ya, she's one of my darling! *muacks* Ah San turned into a lady! what the... hahaha. I mean, she became more and more feminine and mature. *teary eyes*

p/s: Don't you think that I looked so man in this picture... shyt... why am I like this? Never mind, I willing to protect pretty girls... muahahaha.


Oh, most huggable Be was late for the 'gathering'. It's ok, as long as I get to hug her!!! It would be more than enough... She also became more mature already! Just in 3 weeks times... and she's always photogenic~ *envy* I wasn't in a good condition to take photo that day. Every angle of me showed that I'm tired and sleepy. aiks...

Oh my, I started to miss them already as I'm typing this post... *teary eyes again* hahaha.

Well, why we won't miss each other that much during our 2 months holidays last time? hmmm, most probably we can still meet and go to shopping and movie during holidays, but now we can hardly meet since everyone's busy with their intern.

We met in Secret Recipe and talked for like 1 hour plus... I'm so sorry for being super sleepy throughout the meeting... coz I slept 3 hours only the night before... gomen ne~ I've tried my very best to keep myself concious, and not to fall asleep half the meeting. wtf

We told each other our experience during our intern.... and I kept on staring Ah San and Be in their eyes. Can you feel how much do I miss them? hahahaha.

FYI, another member of 4 in love isn't there for the gathering, she's in Malacca. Joee, I'll wait you no matter how long is it. You know I miss you, and I know you miss my hugs too...

Although we met for few hours nia, but still, appreciate it so much~ I can't wait to meet you girls again.

Ok, I should start writing my report now. bye