Secret

Daddy called me early in the morning and he said: Hey you, faster go prepare and go out earlier, it's very jam here, got road block! Don't be late!

Waking up at 7:30am, 8am or 8:20am makes no difference to me... I'll still use the time to the fullest... and possibly end up rushing for no reason! ya, my daddy were right, there was a massive jam at Sungai Ramal, just that part though... it's enough to make me late, you can imagine what time I left my house...

oh my, my biggest weakness, or should have said it's my bad habbit, very bad indeed, is that I will always be late, for class, appointment, lunch or whatever... ya, I know noone likes people who has no time concept. I have been taught about the importance of punctuality since I entered kindergarden/ primary school, even until now my daddy will still giving lecture on the matter of my time management, very often. I hated myself for being late, at least don't too often. Why am I like this? Ok, I will change, I promise!! I swear!

okok, put aside my bad habbit for a while... let's talk about other things. *smile* I went Red Box Plus in Pavilion yesterday with some of my colleagues. No, we weren't there to sing.

Ya, we went there for Yoga's media conference as he just released an album called Mystery. For people who don't know who he is, Yoga was the winner of the "One Million Star"- season 1 in Taiwan.

We're there to interview him for some questions. Ok, ah san, Ima show you some photos here. *hugs*

Phoebe the host, she slimmed alot man~ I also wanna be slimmed. *sweat*


Yam sing~!

He's acting cute, I suppose.

Well, I would have to say, he is just a kid...oh no, a teenager. By the way, he's just 20 year-old, give him some times to grow up. wtf


Neway, I happened to sit at the 1st row as we reached there earlier, that's mean I sit very very near to him, considered. What I can say is, I like him more when he's singing.... hahaha. ok, Ah san, if you wanna see more photos, tell me, I'll send it to you.


As usual, I'm there as a tiny little assistant, again, take some photos and pack stuff, with or without me makes no difference... shit, I have became more and more inferior these days... I myself doubt of my value of existence in this office, and I'll easily drop into the black black hole inside me, depression and disappointment overwhelmed me early in the morning, middle in the afternoon and late in the night... I'm not being exaggerate, I'm just PMS. wtf Frankly, I felt like a loser here, and try not to do things wrong until I mind every steps and became real clumsy coz I scare I'll do anything wrong in the next second, things gone worse when I become invisible and noone will assign any job to me, not even photostating! oh~ how pathetic...


Anyhow, I'm feeling better now, after telling my feelings to friends. Thank you very much for being that supportive and being a good listener. *appreciated*


I have learnt a lesson here, look things at different angle, I'm not that useless as I thought, hopefully... or should have I say, I'm not as important as I thought, I might be overestimated my abilities... Honestly, I keep on thinking bout my abilities lately, it makes me worried day and night. What's annoying me? My future. I see NOTHING for my future, I'm going to graduate very soon, yet I have no planning at all, ya, at all. sorry, out of topic.


Ok. I just wanna say that, I felt much more better now. I know I shouldn't look down at myself and expecting people to notice my existence. I will do all I can to improve myself, what I need is just that little bit of efforts and supports.

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This could be another long winded post, people please be patient, don't leave me half way!


Fook Soon paid me a visit an hour ago. We had lunch in Wong Kok, together with PoiChin.


We talked alot, mmm, in fact we still have many to talk, but we have only 1 hour for lunch... Nvm, FS, I'll accompany you to shopping! or you'll accompany me? hahaha

Snapped some photos in the office.
Oh my, you would never know how terrible I look like in the original photos, this photo had been edited gao gao, by Rika. wtf

Another heavily edited photo... Fs and obese Rika.

Oh my, I beh tahan myself... for being grossly overweight...

Just a minute ago, I told Chardi that I'm fat in MSN and she came to my place holding the book named "Secret". She showed me an article inside and asked me to read. It's about the way you think plays a big part of your life... *sweat* That's mean you'll get what you think, or what you desire IF you have positive belief towards the something that you actually demanding. aiyoh, you get what I mean??

Therefore, I would have to bear in mind that, I am slim, I am slim, I will gain my desire weight, I will get the ideal figure, I know I can!! HAHAHA. Funny but I will give it a try. Don't laugh.

Phew~! I think I have to stop here and keep some for next post. Stay tuned.